bob made it through an open heart episode. A surgery in which he was laid bare. Incredible things. He lived here for a month, poor babe. My former father in law died. I spent a lot of time with that family as they moved through the days. I had to stop doing that. My friend told me that i wasn’t grounded because i was a faerie, and what about that. and i went to quaker meeting today because my son led me back. there is earth and spirit everywhere you look.
i’ve been thinking in posts and wounding myself because i don’t write anymore, so here i am, while ducking another responsibility. I don’t know, maybe i’ll just never figure it all out. its birthday/holiday/too much time right now and i’m buckling in and down and hiding behind bob’s right arm pretty regularly. just get through it. dirt and air.
its very windy. i have brussels sprouts waiting for me in the fridge. i am making hamburger helper tonight, poor children. (your mother needs comfort food.) i’ve stopped eating bags and bags of candy and it is so good, but i am full of craven craves. Also, the whole heart thing means a whole never ever approach to cigarettes, which are a very bad but enjoyable reprieve from clean air and responsibility.
things are stirred up, dust and ash, and I’m glancing out, with my hair in Viking braids, either waiting to kill something, or maybe just yell into the wind. but there is blood in my mouth, and i don’t know what that means.
see? so much.
love you, and have missed you.
kate
This is visceral! So powerful. I send you so much love. Keep yelling. I’d love to see the Viking braids.
Welcome back. I I’ve missed you 💙
So glad to hear that Bob’s surgery went well and he is on the road to recovery. And very sorry to hear about Paul McGonigle. What a unique and interesting person he was. Your kids must miss him and are mourning along with their dad. “So much to do and so little time,” the mantra of adulthood. One foot in front of the other. You’re a list-maker, right? So you know your priorities, so that’s a big help.
See you Saturday.