Courageous

I told someone yesterday that I was courageous.  Well, wrote to them. wrote. But still.  I am.

What does it mean to you?  That you might be courageous too?

What do I mean when I say it about myself?  I mean that I am still here. I am still looking around starry eyed… I am still having moments when I realize I am totally in love with my children. (also, the opposite, but still.)…I am currently willing to try a little ‘feeling’ with dating… (thats the most tepid shout of joy ever, but still… its there!!)

I run outside to see satellites in the sky.  I stare out the window at the blue blue sky and just gaze.

I am choosing. I am laughing. I am striding.

I am .

oh man, I am.