I’m figuring shit out. again.
Having my beloved best friend here was awesome, truly. We slid into perfection like a satisfying poop. And yes, if you know, you know. It had been eight years. Deaths, divorce, a million days had passed and we laughed, and cried, and then laughed more. I felt full.
But now i’m morose, and trying hard to figure out how i found satisfaction before. What did I do for fun? How was I spending my time if not laughing all the time? Is this my beautiful life?
So. I am leaving the kids today to go sailing. Some other parents will bring a kid to baseball and the older one will fend for himself if i’m not back in time for dinner.
Because it is time I had more fun. And while I love the kids and I often have a wonderful time with them, it has been a long time since I had fun, just for myself, Kate.
Fun. Laughs. Brilliance of Experience. Kate.
Lets do it. Making the time and the space starts now, when the weather is hitting peak perfection in new england.
love you, i do.